My Intoxicated Experience

Been awake for close to 32 hrs now, was up all night sneezing and mild fever.Damn the rains....and damn everything around.
I've read somewhere that if the human body is deprived sleep for more than 24 hrs the perception and senses of a person are those of a drunk.
Lets see...my head is spinning,speech is slurred and grainy and my body aches as if someone just beat the crap out of me.

i'm not an emotional person....usually i'm numb to everything that is happening around me...
But my current state seems to have changed that...

i've started to think about all thats been happening for the past few days....

a good friend has gone through a lot lately....just thinkin about it makes me very sad, and also angry....correction
it makes me fume with rage...
frankly i'm not sure how she manages to stay sane through all this...FUCK!
and when all she needs is a little ray of sunshine to keep her going, her 'so called' friends dissapoint her....bastards.

i am sitting here feeling sorry...not for her, but for myself
i feel so small and helpless....
and though i havent been able to say this to her till now...so here it goes( at the risk of being overtly dramatic)
if u r reading this...i just want u to know that u can count on me for anything and everything...

coffee and breakfast is ready....so i'll try to get myself sobered up.